crap. i typed this post twice. cudnt be bothered to type it again actually. but i reali knew i had to share this. before u carry on reading. let me warn you. it's gonna be some christianity thing. and don worry. i wun be forcing you to my church or throwing you wif a bunch of christian facts. i just dont want you to feel cheated.
well. it's not really a vision. but i forgot a name for it. vision is an image given by God, but mine was just a word. as simple as it seems. but i have a whole lot of story behind it. well. that magical word is "imperfection".
it all started during prayer meeting. i'm glad it was good. well, pastor talked about sins. that sins brought out illnesses, fright, etc. and he said, we are not perfect. we cannot get rid of sin on our own. we can only do it though the blood Christ shed on the cross. okay. i thought.
on friday, i went to the art room after school. guides was cancelled cos the lower sec went for some carnival. and most of our guides came from the lower sec. mdm jaya had oral on and mdm kairas was busy too. before i went to the art room, jevonne and i rushed to her hse to get jez's present. we took a cab back to sch, which caused 2.50 -.- anyway. jez didn't seem too surprised to receive it. she just went like. orh. oh well. hope she likes it. back to the topic, we went to the art room to look for su fen. she was helping her friend do her n level art. well, jevonne's friend offered her a halls sweet. and without much thinking, i picked it up and started folding it into a heart shape. it was pretty, but looked weird with the paper. they were going painting. so we koped some. i painted the left side white. and she painted the left side pink. well, we didn't set newspaper beneath, so, while i was painting, she had to hold on to the pink side. while she was painting, i had to hold on the left. if anyone of us did not do so, the heart would move. but. although we held on, a mark was left when we tried lifting the brushes up. hmm. how imperfect.
third time. on saturday. during fellowship. karkeat arrived pretty late. and we started without him. he was at sch having some scouts thing on. we started late, and had a long prayer by aunt sally and some of us. somehow, i knew i had to say this in the prayer. "no matter how we try to perfect the dance steps, they will never be perfect. however, we still want to give it our best shot." okay. that was just part of it. later when karkeat arrived, we stopped practice, and he shared a story. well. it was about the time when Jesus announced that he was Messiah. Jesus could have chosen to tell it to a King, a much much more high status den who he did. which was a 5 times divorcee. furthermore, the man whom she was with currently did not even want to give her his name. Jesus met her at noon, she was there to draw water. she went at noon as she wanted to avoid the other women's rumors in the morning. Jesus told her cos he loved her. no matter how imperfect she was. he loved her. (for a more detailed description of the story, refer to John 4:4-35)
perfect, imperfect, perfect, imperfect. this words kept repeating in my mind. and it was repeated again today. not though any sermon. just a simple chit chat between the youths. what was God really trying to tell me.? until now, i'm not too clear. but what i can tell, is that he doesnt care wad moves we make while dancing. he doesnt care which note they played wrongly. he doesn't care if we forgot our steps. all that matters is our heart. the heart of worship.
God bless you :))
blah. suddenly feel that blogger is so boring la. all u do is tell people what happened todae for the day before or whatever. anyway. yes. i'm here to blog as my blog is rotting. see the spiderwebs? haha. crap me. anyway. jevonne and i went to town today. to get a present for jezreel. yea. we got her a top. white wif pink prints. hmm. a t-shirt i guess. anyway. lijie said she was pretty upset that jvon didn't give her a present. hope she likes the surprise. hmm. people.. i'm too pissed off to write more. grrr. bye.
