God. i feel so useless. darn. firstly. we've noticed that tessa's been missing from church. didn't get to contact her. and no1 took a further step. why didn't i? sigh.. anway. i just read her blog. her family seems to be having some trouble with church. something about mother-pastor choi thing. and her whole family was SUPPOSED to change a church or something.
my jaw dropped when i saw that la. i was like. wad the heck? i mean. why didnt ANYONE from church know about this? and nobody even bothered to contact her. woah. i feel horrid la. we used to be (note: past tense) so close. we would tag each other for the slightest matter.
one period of time. lots of ppl started tagging me. and suddenly tess' tags were gone. without me noticing. i don know why. it happens that i just lived with it somehow. i don understand. why does God have to make her go though so much? suddenly i feel so insignificant. wad are my problems considered to hers man.
i feel like crying. was it so difficult to click onto her link to check out wad's happening in her life? i feel so selfish. i only noticed her post today cause i was checking everyone's link whether they were still using their blog. until i came across hers. fuck. i hate myself.
